Memory

I have lost it ! I will walk into the kitchen and simply not know why I am in there. My brain feels like goo a lot of the time. Not only is my short term memory poor but my long term memory also seems to be flawed. I find it troubling and try not…

Music

Music affects me greatly. I am not alone in this but some people with bipolar have to be careful, as music is another stimulant. Quite often I feel the need for excessively loud music especially when I am on the treadmill and especially in the car. When I see people perform (especially my daughter) to…

Money

Where there are money issues there is always potential for conflict. This has fuelled the agitation in me more than any other area. I simply cannot stand not having enough money and often breath a sigh of relief when my card is not rejected in the supermarket. Since I became ill, my ex and I…

Medication v Meditation

I think I am one of the relatively few people who doesn’t mind having to take medication for their bipolar. Of course I would rather not have a nightly Nutella binge due to the side effects but – for the most part, now that the nightmare of finding the right tablet/dosage seems to have been…

Miscarriage

Writing the book has brought back a lot of unpleasant and troubling memories, one of the most significant being my miscarriage. Before I start, I acknowledge that miscarriages are common and that it is not some tragedy specific to me, so it may come across as being very self-indulgent. I have discussed miscarriage with my…

Mania/Mixed State

The symptoms of mania can include a long period of feeling “high,” or an overly happy or outgoing mood OR feeling extremely irritable, agitated, “jumpy” or “wired.” This might manifest itself as talking very fast, jumping from one idea to another, having racing thoughts, being easily distracted, taking on new projects, being restless, sleeping less,…